somethjng old I dug up

anger.
it comes in so many forms.
ushering in the pressure of the chest cavity. following shorty sometimes is disappointment. for me the two go hand in hand.
the anger of being let down.
but is it anger? or hurt just masquerading as hate?
who wants to admit to themselves they've been hurt?  It's really except all the self-loathing and humiliation that comes with the admittance of actually being hurt by another person. Although the pity party sympathy train is quite often easy route to take when you really take it all and it's a little more embarrassing than anything else.
at anytime for me its hard. let down after let down throughout life.
its easier for me to turn it over in my mind behind that mask.